buddies

so last night you messaged me and said

*meet me outside of your bedroom window*

*when?*

*10 minutes. be there or be gay*

you helped me climb out of my window, then we just walked up and down the street.

it's every so often that we'd do this and it's not the first time.

do you remember the first time?

*cut*

we walked down a road which i had never been before. you held my hand as we walked through the woods, careful to make sure i didn't fall.

but i did fall. i fell hard for you.

*cut*

i'm will to bet that you havn't even noticed becuase your so caught up in post-break up.

but i don't matter.

i'll always be your buddy

*cut*

and nothing more.

nothing more.

i hope you'll know that i love you more than i love myself.

a love like that is hard to come by.

and most of the time unnoticed.

and unapreciated.

do you remember how you used to hug me everyday?

when was the last time you hugged me?

when was the last time you even waved at me

or told me about your problems?

do you remember the last time you held me when i cried?

or the last time someone called you short and i stood up for you.

notice how i've stopped.

notice how i'm (hopefully) slowly letting go.

i love you always